Attention Vatican City, THE VATICAN:
We Have elected a new Pope and her name is Cassadee! Enjoy @:-)
http://www.rollingstone.com/movies/videos/cassadee-pope-pulls-away-from-pack-on-the-voice-20121218
http://www.newsday.com/entertainment/music/backstage-pass-1.811987/the-voice-finale-it-s-all-cassadee-pope-1.4347228
http://www.billboard.com/column/viralvideos/cassadee-pope-before-the-voice-watch-her-1008054522.story#/column/viralvideos/cassadee-pope-before-the-voice-watch-her-1008054522.story
http://hollywoodlife.com/2012/12/18/cassadee-pope-the-voice-will-win-season-3/
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Tuesday, December 18, 2012
Monday, October 8, 2012
Push Pause?
Can everyone just stop spinning around for one second, and breathe?
I wonder what would happen if the whole world took one collective breath. Would storms annihilate war on society's group ex-hale? If we blinked; can we re-twinkle the light of peace and serenity to just appreciate being alive? Would everyone just hug themselves instead of reaching for a gun of "freedoom" blasting our their counterparts?
Can we drop our judgements of each other, blaming one side or the other, and truly make the grass greener on this new side of the glass door? Can society own it's shadow, dance with its details and exhilarate on the common basis of mutual ecstasy?
Can someone please speak in a presidential debate about the things that we actually talk about in our garages and sidewalks? Why is everyone a price tag? Since when was it okay to treat humans like dollar bills, and how can that be changed to at least see the real value instead of the fake veneer sliding through smarmy teeth of media moguls and aristocrats?
I've had it. Can we all please sit down with each other and recreate our America? ...Our Global Politics ... and our Media...
I feel like I need to gather up all the yonis in the country to help me figure this out.
I wonder what would happen if the whole world took one collective breath. Would storms annihilate war on society's group ex-hale? If we blinked; can we re-twinkle the light of peace and serenity to just appreciate being alive? Would everyone just hug themselves instead of reaching for a gun of "freedoom" blasting our their counterparts?
Can we drop our judgements of each other, blaming one side or the other, and truly make the grass greener on this new side of the glass door? Can society own it's shadow, dance with its details and exhilarate on the common basis of mutual ecstasy?
Can someone please speak in a presidential debate about the things that we actually talk about in our garages and sidewalks? Why is everyone a price tag? Since when was it okay to treat humans like dollar bills, and how can that be changed to at least see the real value instead of the fake veneer sliding through smarmy teeth of media moguls and aristocrats?
I've had it. Can we all please sit down with each other and recreate our America? ...Our Global Politics ... and our Media...
I feel like I need to gather up all the yonis in the country to help me figure this out.
Tuesday, August 28, 2012
Music is the only thing that can save me
So being back in northwest Indiana-land has it upsides and downsides. It's a whole 'nother rollercoaster that I've been trying to get out of my whole life.
Good things:
-i'm getting more design gigs. hopefully one day enough to replace the wage slave jobs! haha
<3
Good things:
-i'm getting more design gigs. hopefully one day enough to replace the wage slave jobs! haha
<3
Saturday, July 7, 2012
I see you, Baby
My intention was to illuminate that as teachers working under a broken system, they are not given their full capacities to teach the things they want to, and unconsciously students pick up on these things and perhaps act out or react in ways that aren't necessarily proactive, but actually degenerating.
I agree, that as Americans, we suffer from a system that was designed to fail at the very beginning. I think our Fore-Father's tried their best, but even they couldn't predict what was going to happen in the future. Well, Now that the future is here, and keeps coming, there needs to be redesign of the way in which people interact with each other. People need to be taught about Rebuilding, Redundancies, Redesign, Re-Using, and Re-development. It's like we collectively, as a nation, desperately need a conscious group decision to Relax for a second, take a time to Rewind, note the things that have errors, and simply correct them.
Unfortunately, I feel that we all get to a certain point of inner and outer Rewinding, and some problems seem too grotesque or too confusing to deal with. For instance, Occupy Wall Street does a great job illustrating that there is a malignancy in our American Body, but Society's Judgment perhaps is getting in the way of real dynamic change. I think a great number of people are thinking "Just Take a Shower, you Dirty Hippies." When in Reality, it's like there is a valid problem, even if people don't agree that it is being dealt with the proper way.
Which begs the question, "What is the Right way?" On average, the Right Way is using our human capacity for collective Creation, not collective Destruction. But how do you add to, when it seems like there needs to be so much subtraction? In general, I think that criticism needs to be taken as a point of reference for change or discussion, rather than a personal blow to "the way things are".
People on Wall Street have just as much Stress trying to deal with the failing economy as your Local-Joe. The point of balance of equilibrium is supposed to be our government, but it is obvious that our government is being run by money, instead of fair interchange of ideas. One side points fingers to the other side, and vice-versa. But they are neglecting the four fingers that point in towards themselves.
In general, I think America has greater needs at home on our own soil than we do in another country.
Why are we wasting away at war, when there is crime, rape, murder, suicide, stress, and medical conditions on our own soil? We have to radically realign our priorities.
In other personal news,
I've been functioning a lot better myself lately. I am more clear-headed than I've ever been, and when my own inner turmoil bubbles up, I acknowledge where the turmoil is coming from and then I let it go or deal with it another way.
I've been practicing my qigong and breathing exercises which has been a huge help in navigating my own inner waters. Thank God for Chinese Alternative Medicine, in conjunction with rational Western Therapy. Huge steps forward, for me! No more running around in a tight little circle!
I inherited an entire box filled with dreamy crystals and wire for which to make beautiful jewelries :-] (picture is bad quality of my first attempt)
And I started a painting. Phoenix and I went to a poetry reading on Thursday, and both of us wrote poems and shared them with the group. It felt really good to get some emotions off of my chest!
Take it Easy,
Portia
I agree, that as Americans, we suffer from a system that was designed to fail at the very beginning. I think our Fore-Father's tried their best, but even they couldn't predict what was going to happen in the future. Well, Now that the future is here, and keeps coming, there needs to be redesign of the way in which people interact with each other. People need to be taught about Rebuilding, Redundancies, Redesign, Re-Using, and Re-development. It's like we collectively, as a nation, desperately need a conscious group decision to Relax for a second, take a time to Rewind, note the things that have errors, and simply correct them.
Unfortunately, I feel that we all get to a certain point of inner and outer Rewinding, and some problems seem too grotesque or too confusing to deal with. For instance, Occupy Wall Street does a great job illustrating that there is a malignancy in our American Body, but Society's Judgment perhaps is getting in the way of real dynamic change. I think a great number of people are thinking "Just Take a Shower, you Dirty Hippies." When in Reality, it's like there is a valid problem, even if people don't agree that it is being dealt with the proper way.
Which begs the question, "What is the Right way?" On average, the Right Way is using our human capacity for collective Creation, not collective Destruction. But how do you add to, when it seems like there needs to be so much subtraction? In general, I think that criticism needs to be taken as a point of reference for change or discussion, rather than a personal blow to "the way things are".
People on Wall Street have just as much Stress trying to deal with the failing economy as your Local-Joe. The point of balance of equilibrium is supposed to be our government, but it is obvious that our government is being run by money, instead of fair interchange of ideas. One side points fingers to the other side, and vice-versa. But they are neglecting the four fingers that point in towards themselves.
In general, I think America has greater needs at home on our own soil than we do in another country.
Why are we wasting away at war, when there is crime, rape, murder, suicide, stress, and medical conditions on our own soil? We have to radically realign our priorities.
In other personal news,
I've been functioning a lot better myself lately. I am more clear-headed than I've ever been, and when my own inner turmoil bubbles up, I acknowledge where the turmoil is coming from and then I let it go or deal with it another way.
I've been practicing my qigong and breathing exercises which has been a huge help in navigating my own inner waters. Thank God for Chinese Alternative Medicine, in conjunction with rational Western Therapy. Huge steps forward, for me! No more running around in a tight little circle!
I inherited an entire box filled with dreamy crystals and wire for which to make beautiful jewelries :-] (picture is bad quality of my first attempt)
And I started a painting. Phoenix and I went to a poetry reading on Thursday, and both of us wrote poems and shared them with the group. It felt really good to get some emotions off of my chest!
Take it Easy,
Portia
Tuesday, July 3, 2012
Student Loans-One Nation Under Grim Reaper
((DUN DUN DUN)) ---The music that I think of as I shudder writing this post title.
Ahh... Student Loans. You are so allusive with your promises of easy looking interest number percentages, the dotted lines that you are required to sign before entering into the hallmark of your educational upbringing in America. But wait a second--aren't there some things that you are leaving out?!?!
Like, Why the H*ll are you letting a whole slew of Eighteen-Year-Olds sign those dotted lines in the first place? We barely learned anything about the REAL WORLD in high school, you idiots. The education system doesn't teach us about how to tap into our true inner potential in order to find meaningful work for the rest of our lives. We just finished winning Super Mario Cart on Wii, and now you expect me to know what to do, with full certainty to sign up for a huge debt?
I tried talking to my counselor in high school. Uhm, they were too busy with the 16 year olds who got caught with cocaine in the bathroom. My classes taught a whole lot of stuff. Most of it is completely meaningless. The only things I think I have used from my education were Chicken Tacos from a FACS class. Now that is useful information. How am I supposed to choose from a whole list of possible future careers when any number of them could be possibly appealing? Not to mention, we have our impressionable young minds dazed about in technology and media already, enough to ask, "What the point is of even going to school?"
When we asked, our teachers lamented. It seems like they didn't really know the answer to that question either. Not to mention, they continuously had to dumb-down material to the lowest common denominator because there is always some lazy jerkoff in the class(who also has the most vocal parents.) Teachers give up trying at a certain degree because the administration cuts more classes, and the government issues the most bland credits possible in order to graduate.
And what is with these multiple choice tests that determine whether or not someone moves onto the next grade? Are you on crack? By the end of this boring ass test(that doesn't really judge individual intelligence) there is probably drool so you cannot even grade the darn things.
I ask you, fellow readers, were you Actually ready for college when you went? Do you have a college degree but are now left wondering, "Well, Now what?"
I feel like this "Now What?" Question is plaguing our country. Most of America's industry has become service-oriented jobs, and there are barely any manufacturing jobs. We go to college to try to make an existence for ourselves, but in the meantime, Rent is getting higher (while your college loans make your credit drop lower), Food is getting more expensive (not to mention laden with Genetically Modified Garbage that actually messes up the DNA in your body's cells), People are unfriendly (Because we are constantly Stressed out), and our Government decides to Bail out Bankers instead of it's future working class-Us, The Sons and Daughters of a Bought Congress. Not to mention, you send thousands and thousands of soldiers over to the middle east to kill people (which spreads more terror and infamy, in the hearts of the Soldiers, and the mid-easterners) only to have them come back to America with PTSD, Alcoholism, Self-Medication, and Suicide.
Why are you killing your people, United States of America? Oh, I see, you want oil to fuel the cars that drive to work in the continually dull cycle that you have put us on repeat. Is that why you made school so boring? So we acquiesce and become a gear in your machine?
Here's some novel ideas... Forgive Student Loan Debt, not the bankers.
Bring Our Troops Home----And use the money for investing in battery-powered cars or alternative means of energy so we are not dependent on oil anymore.
And start redesigning your system, because I gotta tell you, This Circle Sucks, and is not very much fun. It is barely living if you ask me.
As for myself, After horribly dropping out of not 1, not 2, but 3 college/universities in the past 5 years, and traveling all about the country making tons of huge mistakes and trying my best to learn from them I will tell you what I have got. I have finally graduated from Life Class 101-105. I am actually aware, and conscious, for the first time in my life of what I want to study when I go back to school. Not only that, but I have real-world experience, I'm an ace at Directions, and I can probably connect you with someone that can help you in YOUR future, because that is how many people I've met.
Oh, America. One Nation Under God? I don't think so. I think your rulers have been bought out by the devil, and we are a Nation Under the Grim Reaper. Do we need a God movement in America? I think we do, because I think a lot of people have lost touch of who God actually is in this country. And I bet he is more sad than anything else. I bet he's up there wondering, "When are these Americans going to realize what is going on? When are they going to start changing there system? Why is it taking so long?" This is what God is thinking.
Ahh... Student Loans. You are so allusive with your promises of easy looking interest number percentages, the dotted lines that you are required to sign before entering into the hallmark of your educational upbringing in America. But wait a second--aren't there some things that you are leaving out?!?!
Like, Why the H*ll are you letting a whole slew of Eighteen-Year-Olds sign those dotted lines in the first place? We barely learned anything about the REAL WORLD in high school, you idiots. The education system doesn't teach us about how to tap into our true inner potential in order to find meaningful work for the rest of our lives. We just finished winning Super Mario Cart on Wii, and now you expect me to know what to do, with full certainty to sign up for a huge debt?
I tried talking to my counselor in high school. Uhm, they were too busy with the 16 year olds who got caught with cocaine in the bathroom. My classes taught a whole lot of stuff. Most of it is completely meaningless. The only things I think I have used from my education were Chicken Tacos from a FACS class. Now that is useful information. How am I supposed to choose from a whole list of possible future careers when any number of them could be possibly appealing? Not to mention, we have our impressionable young minds dazed about in technology and media already, enough to ask, "What the point is of even going to school?"
When we asked, our teachers lamented. It seems like they didn't really know the answer to that question either. Not to mention, they continuously had to dumb-down material to the lowest common denominator because there is always some lazy jerkoff in the class(who also has the most vocal parents.) Teachers give up trying at a certain degree because the administration cuts more classes, and the government issues the most bland credits possible in order to graduate.
And what is with these multiple choice tests that determine whether or not someone moves onto the next grade? Are you on crack? By the end of this boring ass test(that doesn't really judge individual intelligence) there is probably drool so you cannot even grade the darn things.
I ask you, fellow readers, were you Actually ready for college when you went? Do you have a college degree but are now left wondering, "Well, Now what?"
I feel like this "Now What?" Question is plaguing our country. Most of America's industry has become service-oriented jobs, and there are barely any manufacturing jobs. We go to college to try to make an existence for ourselves, but in the meantime, Rent is getting higher (while your college loans make your credit drop lower), Food is getting more expensive (not to mention laden with Genetically Modified Garbage that actually messes up the DNA in your body's cells), People are unfriendly (Because we are constantly Stressed out), and our Government decides to Bail out Bankers instead of it's future working class-Us, The Sons and Daughters of a Bought Congress. Not to mention, you send thousands and thousands of soldiers over to the middle east to kill people (which spreads more terror and infamy, in the hearts of the Soldiers, and the mid-easterners) only to have them come back to America with PTSD, Alcoholism, Self-Medication, and Suicide.
Why are you killing your people, United States of America? Oh, I see, you want oil to fuel the cars that drive to work in the continually dull cycle that you have put us on repeat. Is that why you made school so boring? So we acquiesce and become a gear in your machine?
Here's some novel ideas... Forgive Student Loan Debt, not the bankers.
Bring Our Troops Home----And use the money for investing in battery-powered cars or alternative means of energy so we are not dependent on oil anymore.
And start redesigning your system, because I gotta tell you, This Circle Sucks, and is not very much fun. It is barely living if you ask me.
As for myself, After horribly dropping out of not 1, not 2, but 3 college/universities in the past 5 years, and traveling all about the country making tons of huge mistakes and trying my best to learn from them I will tell you what I have got. I have finally graduated from Life Class 101-105. I am actually aware, and conscious, for the first time in my life of what I want to study when I go back to school. Not only that, but I have real-world experience, I'm an ace at Directions, and I can probably connect you with someone that can help you in YOUR future, because that is how many people I've met.
Oh, America. One Nation Under God? I don't think so. I think your rulers have been bought out by the devil, and we are a Nation Under the Grim Reaper. Do we need a God movement in America? I think we do, because I think a lot of people have lost touch of who God actually is in this country. And I bet he is more sad than anything else. I bet he's up there wondering, "When are these Americans going to realize what is going on? When are they going to start changing there system? Why is it taking so long?" This is what God is thinking.
Saturday, June 30, 2012
Picking Up the Pieces
Trying again with the blog thing. My last one was a bit too dark and doesn't really reflect me, as I am. (opens in a new window, if you're interested.)
My name, for the sake of internetz-world, and any number of people or robots that might come across the words flying across it, is Portia Confidential. :-D Safety is important to my Mom.
Who is Portia? She is the goddess of Justice. She carries the scales in her hands. I personally identify with this symbolism very much so, because by birth I am a double libra, and I feel that I am trying to play in a world with an uneven field. I'd like to make that field more even, if I can. Uh, in the past my depression has caused me to lash out unfairly to the people I love the most. I apologize, from the bottom of my heart, where I am continuing to work on that part of me that might have pushed any number of you away from me. I am consciously attempting to become better, and not treat you unfairly, because you all deserve love. Here is a cool nifty link to Portia here...(also opens in a new window....if you actually read this page, I'd Love to hear your thoughts.)
After talking with lots of people(including friends, families, strangers, therapists, and coach-like people) I have finally gotten to a point, where I recognize the depression I was in, and how long and steeped a depression it actually was(is).
But Today, Ladies and Gentlemen, I have recently come across a wide array of self-epiphanies, which today has turned into positive goal-making, for it seems, the first time in my life. Whoa. Portia's puttin on her big Girl pants now. {watch out, that woman-skirt might be next! ;) }
Goals for the next 30 Days:
With Love,
Portia
My name, for the sake of internetz-world, and any number of people or robots that might come across the words flying across it, is Portia Confidential. :-D Safety is important to my Mom.
Who is Portia? She is the goddess of Justice. She carries the scales in her hands. I personally identify with this symbolism very much so, because by birth I am a double libra, and I feel that I am trying to play in a world with an uneven field. I'd like to make that field more even, if I can. Uh, in the past my depression has caused me to lash out unfairly to the people I love the most. I apologize, from the bottom of my heart, where I am continuing to work on that part of me that might have pushed any number of you away from me. I am consciously attempting to become better, and not treat you unfairly, because you all deserve love. Here is a cool nifty link to Portia here...(also opens in a new window....if you actually read this page, I'd Love to hear your thoughts.)
After talking with lots of people(including friends, families, strangers, therapists, and coach-like people) I have finally gotten to a point, where I recognize the depression I was in, and how long and steeped a depression it actually was(is).
But Today, Ladies and Gentlemen, I have recently come across a wide array of self-epiphanies, which today has turned into positive goal-making, for it seems, the first time in my life. Whoa. Portia's puttin on her big Girl pants now. {watch out, that woman-skirt might be next! ;) }
Goals for the next 30 Days:
- Practice Qigong "Lifting the Sky" for 15 minutes, in the morning, and at night
- Finish a Dear Friend's "powerbook" I am making in the hopes that she can feel some empowerment over the disease she has been plagued with
Send another Friend a Google Chromebook, to help her with school (Thanks, Vampire Killr)- Fix Johnny Cash-my car-Radiator and
Tires - Sign up for Ink Lessons to prepare for a graphic novel I want to write and illustrate (with a woman who has actually worked for marvel and dc comics before!)
- Make some $$
- Paint a picture for Salon Utopia in Merrillville, IN
- Do not fight with my boyfriend, do not get angry with myself or him
- Get in touch with the people who asked me to help paint a mural
- Finish my Art website, so I can sell/display my art online
- Draw at least 2 times a week
- Figure out costs/materials for renting a booth at the local farmers market for Caricatures
- Continue Volunteering/Continue going to Dojo (Kung fu perhaps?)
- Quit Smoking.
- Develop enough paintings for an art show
- Start illustrating/writing Graphic Novel
- Make a Dragon Eye sign for the local Hostel we stayed at upon moving to Florida
- Attend cousins wedding on September 2nd in NWI
- Get a Bicycle
- Figure out what debts I need to pay to increase my credit score
- Plan for paying back my student loans
- Research and set up LFNU(Love Found Nation University) proposal and website-the "university" I want to set up that is free for everyone, and any age can attend (Big, Long-Time Dream)
- Move to Seattle, Washington, enroll in the University of Washington, and start pursuing a degree in Social Work
- More Art and Art Shows
With Love,
Portia
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